Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest https://biblehub.com/matthew/11-28.htm. I just got off of work after a long day. What made the day so long is not because of having much to do but the mental weight of dealing with tough people. I left work feeling drained, distraught, and just not confident in my role.
After work, I took a nap, woke up, and wanted to do nothing really. I felt like I wanted my mind to rest and I didn’t want to do anything that required thinking. I am naturally a thinker, and thinking brings out the best in me. I am a deep and analytical person I like to pull out the hidden treasures of things for revelation. It makes me feel empowered and above the ordinary. So for that to be diminished in me is going against what I need to flourish in my calling ( I see you, enemy). Not to mention my morning prayer room made me feel like my words didn’t leave an impact or didn’t connect. All came against my confidence leaving me frazzled.
Instead of me going to God with these burdens, I did nothing. I kept silent and was looking for something to give me peace. Something to have me at ease. Something to do. I ended up eating and watching a chill movie. I also took a bubble bath and soaked for about 15 minutes which felt very good. I did talk to God a little.
At a time I felt burdened or even heavy why didn’t I seek God? When did I start equating my time with God with a “chore”, a “mind” thing something that I needed to strive, pull, or work at? Why didn’t I feel that connecting with God is my rest, my peace, and my strength? Where did that blockage come from? Since when did I serve God with my mind instead of my heart? Sometimes warfare can have you in strategy and defense mode that you get stuck there. We serve God with our hearts, not just with our minds. A mindful and intellectual relationship with God is legalistic, foolish, and not sustaining. An intimate relationship with God is what gives.
God is saying come to me with your burdens and I will give you rest. This means to stop striving. Stop trying to figure it out right now. Come to me for rest in this situation. I will teach you what to do giving you grace in your burden. Take my Yoke upon you, means to connect, stay connected. To be yoked is to be joined tightly with something we are together in this thing. What I tried to carry alone becomes lighter and easier with God.
Thank you, God, for the grace to ride the waves of life with you.
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